"If You're Not The One"

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm prayin' you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

sleepless night

its 3 in the morning.
haizz.. i just did some akaun dokumen questions. sighs.. i screwed up my akaun.
i guess its just not the right time to do now maybe.
um.. i dunno why i have lots of my mind. but i just dunno how to let it out.
is it bcos we dont understand each other?
is it bcos i dont understand u enough?
i just dunno la whats the matter with us. im very upset. i really dunno what to do. or whats wrong here.
maybe its just i dont deserve anyone. sighs..
what did i do wrong?
can someone just tell me what i deserve & what i dont??
im restless. im tired..la
i really cant go on like this. so tired..going on with this pain.
i said we will be happy happy. no more downs. but again it happen. sighs.
my fault..
just to let u know. i never intend not to tell u ok. i always tell what u wanna know.
& i never ever asked u to kept silent. never..
u must always remember. who are u to me?
& i dont hate u. how could i? just think about it.

i knew this goes on

it been so long since i updated my blog. haizz.. i dont know how to arrange my words.
im just feeling so lost. sighs..
this life is never stable.
it will always goes its own way. without even bothering how are we coping with our own life.
so miserable..
we struggle & struggle so much. after that it seems its all better.
not long after that we have to struggle & struggle again.
um.. why is life so selfish?

a lot which is happening behind me. yes. i knew.
but i just dont know.
sighs.. im wordless..
in one second life will be seem so beautiful. but just in a blink of an eye it turns to be something so ugly.
im trying to do my best here. but yet everything that i do later seem to be going wrong direction.
what did i do?
where am i wrong?
i didnt expect all that i do to be right.
well.. no one is perfect ok. so am i.
but sometimes no one understand what im seeing. & what im doing.
i never intend to hurt anyone. all i want is everybody is going on easy in their own ways.

haizz.. i just dunno which path am i going now.
im just so lost..

100 truths about me

ARE YOU:

►Perfect: nope. well..no one is perfect

►Tall: nah.. neither one.

►In your pajamas: nope.

►Left handed: nope. right handed like everyone else

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LAST

►Friend you saw: my darlingg.. a week ago already. sobs.. missing him so much

►Talked to on the phone: him

►Person to text you: him

►Is today better than yesterday: no difference

FAVORITE:

►Number: 2, 8

►Color: so many

►Food: what i eat

►Place: my home

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QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?

► got up. went down half way the stairs & went back up. get changed get ready for b'fast

Q: Do you have anything bothering you

► lots

Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?

► Indiana Jones

Q: Where is the last place you went?

► 1 U

Q. Do you smile a lot?

► usually i do. lately nope

Q: Do you wish upon stars?

► sometimes

Q: Are you a friendly person?

► well..i can be really nice & really mean

Q: Where did you sleep last night?

► my room.. where else?

Q: Why did you sleep there?

► bcos there's where i sleep?

Q: When was the last time you cried?

► recently..

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?

► lots of lots of stuff

Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great?

► 7

Q: What do you hear right now?

► Chris Brown - Forever

Q: Does anything hurt you right now?

► um.. maybe?

Q: What's your favorite month?

► no difference

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EMOTIONS:

Are you missing someone right now?

► yep

Are you single?

► nope..

Are you tired?

► restless

Are your parents still married?

► yeah!! DEFINITELY!

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BASICS:

►Real name? Audrey

►Age? 17

►Eye color? black

►Zodiac sign? Leo

►Male or female? female

►Single? nope

►Crushing? only him

►Smart? normal

►Hair color? black

►Sweats or Jeans? Jeans

►Phone or Camera? Phone

►Health freak? nope..

►Righty or lefty? righty

►SMOKE or Drink? drink occasionally BUT NEVER GONNA SMOKE

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FIRSTS:

►First best friend? M

►First award? netball match among classes during standart6. way back already

►First enemy? cant remember

►First pet? doggie

►First vacation? cant remember. i had been to many places

CURRENTLY:

►Eating? nope...

►Drinking? nope..

►Listening to? music..

►Plans for tommorow? nothing

►Waiting for? nothing.. im just so lost

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WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER:

►Lips or eyes? his eyes...

►Shorter or taller? average...

►Romantic or spontaneous? anything

►Sensitive or loud? depends...

►Hook-up or in a relationship? relationship la....

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HAVE YOU EVER:

►Drank hard drinks? yep

►Lost glasses/contacts? nope.

►Ran away from home? nope....

►Broken someone's heart? maybe?

►Been arrested? never

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ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

►Do you like someone? lovee him..

►Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? sort of

►Post as 100 truths about me

28 Things about Guys

28 Things about Guys

-Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

-Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him

-Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex-love interest

-Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

-Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

-Guys get jealous easily.

-Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

-Giving a guy a hanging message like "YOU KNOW WHAT?!..UH..NEVERMIND.." would make him jump to conclusion that is far from what you are thinking and he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

-Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

-A USUAL ACT THAT PROVES THE GUY LIKES YOU IS WHEN HE TEASES YOU.

-GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU LOVE THEM IF THEY ARE SERIOUS IN THEIR RELATIONSHIPS..

-GUYS THINK WAY TOO MUCH. ONE SMALL THING A GIRL DOES, EVEN IF SHE DOESN'T NOTICE IT CAN MAKE THE GUY THINK ABOUT IT FOR HOURS, TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT IT MEANT..

-Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

-When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

-IF A GUY STARTS TO TALK SERIOUSLY, LISTEN TO HIM. IT DOESN'T HAPPEN THAT OFTEN, SO WHEN IT DOES, YOU KNOW SOMETHING'S UP.

-If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

-When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

-WHEN A GUY LOOKS AT YOU FOR LONGER THAN A SECOND, HE'S DEFINITELY THINKING SOMETHING.

-Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

-A GUY HAS MORE PROBLEMS THAN YOU SEE WITH YOUR NAKED EYES.

-Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

-Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

-GUYS HATE REJECTION, BUT THEY HATE BEING LED ON EVEN MORE

-If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

-Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

-WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO BE WITH YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE..