how can you mend

broken hearts...

- you need time and space to get over things

- experience new things

- find new friends

- believe in yourself

- stirring memories will make it tougher

- don't talk about new relationships with him/her

- you can't force the relationship

- decide why you want him/her in your life

- if it's revenge it won't work

- don't compare relationships

- if it doesn't work you've always got your old friends

yeeah..u 49! whooaa

yeah..
im so happy today..i PASSED!! YEAHH!!...


49..^^

i aimed 50 but i got 49. well..im so happy already. its enough...

last i took it i got less ONE to pass..
today..
i got less ONE to perfect...hehe..

my happy ending..49!

我终于还是说了一句我爱你 还记得那个微凉夜里天空正飘着小雨
心跳的声音 像舞动奇迹
你看着我说千万不要爱上你 因为你只会让我伤心别傻了快点喊停
你那么冷静 忽远又忽近
我知道我对你来说也许太年轻 我想我猜我问我终于了解
原来为爱流的眼泪 也是种甜蜜滋味
只想爱你 当我和你走在一起就已经决定 不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己 可以为爱那么坚定
只想爱你 好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你 我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定 究竟爱我还是逃避 Sorry 我还是不会放弃爱你

Wo zhong yu hai shi shou le yi ju wo ai ni
Hai ji de na ge wei liang ye li tian kong zheng piao zhe xiao yu
Xin tiao de sheng yin xiang wu dong qi ji
Ni kan zhe wo shuo qian wan bu yao ai shang ni
Yin wei ni zhi hui rang wo shang xin bie sha le kuai dian han ting
Ni na me leng jing hu yuan you hu jin
Wo zhi dao wo dui ni lai shuo ye xu tai nian qing
Wo xiang wo cai wo wen wo zhong yu liao jie
Yuan lai wei ai liu de yan lei ye shi zhong tian mi zi wei

Zhi xiang ai ni
Dang wo he ni zou zai yi qi jiu jing yi jue ding
Bu kan bu ting bu wen ye bu hui fang qi
Shi ni rang wo liao jie zi ji
Ke yi wei ai na me jian ding

Zhi xiang ai ni
Hao xiang mei tian zheng kai yan jing jiu neng kan dao nin
Wo zhi dao wo ou er you yi dian ren xing
Bu guan ni zuo ren he jue ding
Jiu jing ai wo hai shi tao bi
Sorry wo hai shi bu hui fang qi ai ni

i hatee..u 41!

sighs..
in the morning i woke up at 7. shower..& get ready.
come down & just wait for time to past..
i didnt took anything also..
then when its time..left hse & went usj2.
waited till they fetch us to take the exam..its at ss15

& got 41.. dame..

i hate the no.41 now. lol!
giving me nightmares..
now i have to retake bcos fail by 1 question..sobs..

came back & ate maggi. come online & put up a stupid post about a stupid day of stupid 41!!
then i go take nap..

so hard to sleep. my darling put me to sleep.. hehe.. thank you..
slept at 2 then while i was sleeping..it was raining heavily..
thunders & lightnings...so scary..
i just sleep lor..so tired & disappointed today somemore..sobs..

woke up at 5. dinner at 7. then i did read back the undang book..dame..
i saw some of my wrong answers..
sighs..
if i had correct atleast ONE of it i wont need to retake.dame..

i feel like tearing to book too lor..haha..
but my darling said...i cant do that..
yeah..hehe..he knows me. i dont tear book lor..
but aiyooo..really geram la.haha..

dame..crap!

well..today is about taking the undang exam..
dame...what a day..shit!
passing mark is 42

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i got 41..
what the....



if its 40 i would had not much to say. but 41! dame..
so long i wanna take the exam already..delay & delay..
& failed..sighs..

wanted to take last saturday(14/2)
but had funeral..so really cant make it la..
so well..fine..went today & FAILED!!!...

I can't sleep,
everything i ever knew,
Is a lie,
without you,

I can't breathe,
when my heart is broke in two,
There's no beat,
without you,

You're not gone,
but you're not here,
At least that's the way it seems tonight,
If we could try to end these wars,
I know that we can make it right,
cause baby,

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more,

How can I leave,
when everything that I adore,
and everything I'm living for,
it's in you,

I can't dream,
sleepless nights have got me bad,
The only dream i ever had,
is being with you,

I know that we can make it right,
It's gonna take a little time,
Lets not leave ourselves with no way out,
lets not cross that line,(that line)

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more,

Remember that i made a vow,
that i would never let you go,
I meant it then, I mean it now,
and i want to tell you so,

I don't wanna fight no more, (oh no)
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
(can we start)
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more...

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for, (oh yeah)
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
(my heart)
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
(I'm hoping)
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more.......

It's all a lie,
Without you,
without you......

the last goodbye

he's gone forever...
today..
but however..he will always be remember by all of us..
um..my late grandfather. is 93 yrs old..
guess he's live his life happily..
may him rest in peace now..
he's a great great grandfather already..=)

that make me a grandauntie.. hehe..

well..everyone will go when the time comes. then there will be new borns and next generations..

R.I.P.

my grandfather's time is up...sighs..
he's gone yesterday 11-02-2009 @ 9:44PM...
didnt know it would be so soon..

may his soul rest in peace...

live your life...
you're gonna be a shining star...

to love a person is easy...but to be loved back is hard....
because it depends on the other person..
u cant control his/her feels..
all the world is a stage..
and everyone has their part..
u live life only once..everyone dies in the end..no one lives forever..a day will come for u to go..
life is like a play on the stage..
yesterday had gone..today also will be gone..& 2moro will come..
this goes on & on...
time cant be turn back..u can try turn back the clock..but u know...u are just lying to urself..

so live ur life the way u wanted..not others want to see..be urself..
believe in whatever u believe in..dont let others decide to say it will never happen..or last..

we as humans all do mistakes... forgive..& learn from every fall..
then.. MOVE ON
because there is plenty more that life has to offer you out there...

live and let live

i have left nothing in me.. no more rooms of love. but only hatess..
i have lost all hopes, faith, dreamss.. all!! everything...

plss.. dont anyone find me. im not there.. im not here..
i'm lost... lost forever......

dream..
dream the undream...
until the morning ..

for about a week im like a lost soul. stay up until late 2 or 3 in the morning..
like a walking body.. with no heart no feels..no . . nothing..
& the next day waking up late..11 onwards. sighs..
i just dunno.. my heart is totally broken into pieces. i keep falling & falling..& i cant find myself..my missing pieces. where am i?
every night i have dreams. weird dreams..
i have dreams but i dont remember the faces..

last night i dream of a mermaid. man mermaid.. haha..
i dunno did it ever exist or not. but thats just my dream..
we swim deep in the ocean.. which is so beautiful.. the water is so clear..

firstly..i do swim. but i dont swim much. i dont deep site. most of the time playing water. haha.. thats real me.
that dream..i dunno...

have i lost my mind...
well i don't know..

sighs.. i took my 5hrs kursus a week before cny.
at that time i did study the book.. frequently..
but now..i havent been looking at the book also.
so now i dunno when am i gonna be taking my exam.

god..i just dunno whatever happen to me la.

lost my mind? um..i guess not only that.
i have lost myself...
i have lost all feels.. no mood.. i just dunno what to do.
i cant feel anything.. i cant think..cant remember anything..

Anything for you
Though you're not here
Since you said we're through
It seems like years
Time keeps dragging on and on
And forever's been and gone
Still I can't figure what went wrong

I'd still do anything for you
I'll play your game
You hurt me through and through
But you can have your way

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though you'll never see me cryin'
You know inside I feel like dying

And I'd do anything for you
In spite of it all
I've learned so much from you
You made me strong
But don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

I hope you find someone to please you
Someone who'll care and never leave you
But if that someone ever hearts you
You just might need a friend to turn to

And I'd do anything for you
I'll give you up
If that's what I should do
To make you happy

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though inside I feel like dying
You know you'll never see me cryin'

Don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

Just like a shadow
I'll be beside you
I'll be your comfort
I'm there to guide you home
I will provide you a place of shelter
I want a be your zone
I'll act as if you do
Tell me what you wanted me to do