My Life ! My Love ! My All

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2010-01-04T13:42:00.006+08:00

I'm back from Cameron (just yesterday) Should be back on Saturday actually... But stayed on another night there WHAT A HELL OF A HOLIDAY! haha..(we'll just see how it goes ya)

We left for Cameron on 31st of Dec (new year eve)
Everything was fine till reaching there..
in the noon, we went to the pasar malam
sambil walk walk, eat eat :)

AND
I took a pic of some beautiful rosesthe roses....
so colorful
awww
so nicee le :)

hmmm, after jalan2,
still hungry, so we stop by a shop, ate noodle

Then, at night...
mm, dame! I'm feeling sick!
I VOMITED!! ALL OUT.... (it was till midnight)

sighs~ what a new year ??

while everyone is celebrating,
I'm just lying on the bed!

however, the next day,
NEW YEAR
I'm alright already....
so happy..
I always hate falling sick!! ish..
we went visiting all the farms

and seee many blooming flowers :)
it's so cold up there...hehe

hmm..i'm a little rusty in this thingy (blogging) already...sighs
i'm out of words~
until here then.....byez

well...~ I'm back :)

2009-12-31T08:19:00.004+08:00

WELL
I'm back now =)
It's been months since I left my blog... sighs

Things have changed now... Time flies, people changed, SO everything changes....

Here in my blog,
I have to do some constructions.. hehe
Anyways, it will all be done.

It's 8 in the morning,
& & I'm leaving for Cameron in a while....~ GTG

4/6/2009

2009-04-06T00:00:00.001+08:00

today..monday =) had driving lesson like last week. hehe..
my naik bukit, parking, three point turn is so much better today.. im so happy... i did the QTI test. different instructor sat in the car. & different car... but still the kancil la. only org lain punya la. driving that car is so different. i meant the feeling.lol! i drive worst than i had driven before. haha.. uncle cheng car i can smoothly drive but the other car adui...old la..so keras the clutch & the accelerator. & the carr..so dirty. like im in a desert when im in the car only.
on the way back, we had roti canai. biasa la..the uncle will bring me go for breakfast before going back. but this time i paid..=)

so i asked the uncle. JPJ test im driving other car is it? he said yes..but he said dont worry la. for JPJ test all new car like his. umm..i told him. i dunno la.. i so scared. if kena car like the one i drive for the QTI test, i will cry laa.. i told him, uncle can borrow ur car for the JPJ test ah?? hehe.. he laughed...
then when i came back home.. took shower. then i tidy up my table. haha.. dunnooo what got into me today..suddenly got the mood to do so. mom asked what happen to my box? the box under my table. actually its already koyak long time already. only i lazy to kemas..lol! so pack pack everything already. satisfied... nap time...

2moro im having my 1st principle of accounting class..9am - 1pm 4hrs... umm..im looking forward for it.=)

[misss_lingg]

4/5/2009

2009-04-05T00:00:00.001+08:00

4/5/09 - my class starts at 1pm. so can sleep longer lor. hehe.. i woke up at 10. shower & get dress everything ready by 11. came down..dunno what to do. sat in front the comp & i did the tutorial question. but the internet connection is down. so i didnt send to my member. just print it out & bring to coll.
about 12 plus mom send me to coll. i asked her to stop by shell station to buy chocolate. hehe.. so that i could munch something later. i bought chocolate & bread. ate bread in the car..thats my breakfast today.

Business Finance...
today.. we learn to use the calculator. its like magic. hehe.. just key in the data & u will get the figures u want.=)
at 1st thinking about the cost of the calculator..its expensive. 100++ close to 200 d. but when we start using the calculator, its worth laa.. save all the trouble counting the longg way. anyways, once in a life time thing la most of the working students said.lol! funny la seeing them using the calculator.. for me, the calculator usage still fresh. a few months ago baru left school. for them working..karat already. haha..

[misss_lingg]

4/4/2009

2009-04-04T00:00:00.002+08:00

4/4/09 - went to college as usual. in the morning.. haizz.. dad kinda mad la bcos mom so slow. sobs.. we left hse at 8.30am.. almost late for coll d. usually have to leave latest by 8.15am. he drove so fast.lol! when i reach, when i walked into the dewan, the lecturer is there already. but he havent started.. so ok laa..
after that my sis & dad going back malacca bcos sunday morning got prayers. me, mom not going back. bcos i'll have class on sunday. & esther too didnt go back. haha.. i dunno why.

1st lesson, Business Law...
then the lecturer assign us tutorial work. our 1st homework. hehe.. have to do in groups of 3 or 4. 1 is not a group. kinda bored laa the lecturing. but i have to complete my modules. umm..law aka rules..are meant to be broken?? haha..
actually in some way, i do like law. once before i had a thought of taking up law. but law..there's so many point to view it.. so it's very luan... hehe.. but to argue the matter is nice.=)
so before i went out for lunch just simply make a group lor. 4 of us. i had mcd for lunch. havent ate mcd so quite some time already.=)

2nd lesson, Pendidikan Moral...
this time we had it in a smaller room. but wow..its full than last week. noisy too. out of no where, the lecturer asked..am i married?? LOL!!no...at this age? haha.. longgg way more to go laaa..

4.30pm..finish mom came & fetch. went back home. sleepppp... hehe.. tired.
at night went out to eat chicken rice..

[misss_lingg]

2009-04-03T16:45:00.002+08:00

4/3/2009

2009-04-03T00:00:00.001+08:00

i was watching armageddon.. its a sad touching romance story.. an asteroid of the size of texas is headed for earth. a few astronauts of the world's best deep core drilling team is sent to nuke the rock from the inside. the asteroid will be hitting the earth in 18 days. the only man to do it, is an old driller (bruce willis) and his group of misfit drillers and geologists. he has a daughter (liv tyler) who falls in love with (ben affleck) the overager fiancee of bruce willis daughter..is who also one of the astronauts including her father is going out of space.
almost to the end of the story. when their bomb equipment is spoil by the crashing of the asteroid. they have to manual set off the bomb. so someone have to stay back to press the button.. of cos everyone wanna live. so they lucky pick who have to stay back. it is his daughter's fiancee. then he send him off but in the end...bruce willis pushed him back & sacrifice himself. sighs.. so sad...
he wish that he could walk down the aisle of his daughter's wedding but he had to sacrifice for the happiness of his daughter & the earth. he told her to take care of her fiancee. & that he'll be looking over her.
aiyoo.. so sad ending.. sobs...
at times watching movies i sometimes imagine myself into it. what if it happens to me.. sighs.. no one can predict the future.. so live ur life to the fullest...

[misss_lingg]

I am but I am

2009-04-02T22:23:00.002+08:00

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab

4/2/2009

2009-04-02T00:00:00.001+08:00

today.. mom didnt cook dinner. we went outside for dinner. i had dinner at ss19. & guess who we met there.. Pn.Ghwee =)
so we talk talk little while lor. haha.. i still remember when we were in school. when i see her i usually avoid her. bcos she always nagged me about my fingernails.lol! cut somemore.. cut somemore...thats what she will always say to me. but now, since we are out of school. she's so friendly.. umm.. actually she's very nice wan. just that in school the teachers got to be strict a bit la. later students will say the teachers are pilih kasih..or buyers.. so have to treat everyone fair & square..

when she saw me also she remembered me. hehe.. she asked me when free help her do typing, setting questions for her. umm.. ok laa.. im quite free also so far la. so see la.. i'll go & help her once in a while lor when i dont have classes. she asked me what am i doing now & stuffs..
we talked quiet long also. until the food came. then i told her we talk somemore other times..

so fast le this flies.. haizz.. in december we are taking SPM.. last day of our papers & everything. then new year.. came 2009! february, valentines day..=) march..SPM results are out. then now we are all starting college life. umm..everyone is going on their separate directions. this year 17 going on 18... then comes 19.. sooner or later we'll be in 20's & working... its really really fast...

[misss_lingg]

4/1/2009

2009-04-01T00:00:00.003+08:00

[misss_lingg]

3/31/2009

2009-03-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

umm.. nothing much happen today. just did housework with mom. hehe.. kinda surprising too..me doing housework eh. actually i can do wan la. just that see my mood lor.=)
then at night followed dad send sis to tuition. & pour diesel. i did it.. dad asked me to do wan. so i do lor. he told me to learn.

[misss_lingg]

2009-03-30T19:31:00.002+08:00

3/30/2009

2009-03-30T00:00:00.000+08:00

today.. im had driving lesson. uncle cheng is coming to fetch me about 6.40am like that. but i woke up at 6.lol! i saw the time. i quickly woke up then went upstairs to shower. i slept on the cushion too last night. luckily i manage get ready in time. bcos i also dont like if ppl waiting outside there for me. not nice laa.. & somemore 7am is confirm jammed outside there. so okk..
uncle came & fetch me in time also. we are going to shah alam for practice today. so we use the kesas way. just after summit when he turn left. then he stop aside. asked me to drive. hehe.. so i drove all the way to shah alam. at there we did the naik bukit 1st.. then the parking.. after that the three point turn. then again...did it about 3 times, i guess.. adui...my hands are tired la. have to turn so much. a while left. then a while right. somemore have to make full turn the stering. hehe..
umm.. did it about 3 times d. he taught me the exam road route. he told me on the exam day. u have to remember everything. where to turn.. where to go. the JPJ wont tell anything. sighs.. so did the same route over & over again. when out & came back. then when out again. about 2 times..
after that enough. lets go out. go back.. as usual the uncle, lets go have breakfast. hehe.. ok laa.. this time i have wan tan mee. & coke.. so tired.. so i wanted something cold. after makan makan then i drove back home.=)

[misss_lingg]

3/29/2009

2009-03-29T00:00:00.001+08:00

last night..
reach malacca about 7 already. put down the stuff from the car. after that went temple. came home from temple about 10pm d. im so tired.. on the back malacca on the highway didnt sleep at all. so came home from temple took shower. took bolster & slept on the cushion in the hall. having headache somemore at that time. sighs.. hard to sleep also la. but still i have to sleep. in the morning 10am have to leave hse. bcos i have class at 1pm..

3/29/09 - im suppose to wake up early. i set alarm at 7.50am.. it rang then i change to 8.50am.. & i woke 9 something. haha.. when i saw the time. i jump out of the cushion went to bath already. im late...
bath.. get dress & everything d. my parents came back from b'fast. they bought back noodles from me. i was hungry too at that time. so came down.. ate the noodles but i didnt finish it also. just wake up. normal la..for me... when i just wake up i dont eat much wan.
at 10 something pack everything. put everything into the car. then mom drive back to KL.
we reach at 12. mom & sis had roti canai then straight away sent me to coll. today my class starts at 1pm.
im having Business Finance. umm..finance ok la.. like accounts plus add maths bcos got lots of formulas.. hehe..

[misss_lingg]

3/28/2009

2009-03-28T00:00:00.001+08:00

im sorry for the late posting these days. bcos just started coll. so kinda busy & gettting use to with the times..

3/28/09 - is my 1st day.. i set alarm 6.50am.. woke up. took shower. get dress & prepared everything. umm..im kinda nervous also la. being in a new surrounding. & after left school for 3 months. now getting back to studies.
at 8 plus i left hse. heading to damansara bcos it takes about 40-45mins to reach my coll. my class started at 9.
when i reached there. went up to 2nd floor. took my notes.. then went into the dewan.. i dunno anyone there. felt so lost. sighs.. everyone is like elder than me. mostly around 20's-30's..
at 10.30am i'll have briefing for the new students. there are 5 new students including me. but im the youngest one there. then i saw a girl came in the dewan. she looks like about my age. i thought maybe she's new too. but when she sat, she started talking talking to everyone. umm..i guess im wrong then. she's not new. she's more senior than me..
my 1st class is Business Law. adui...pening la. the lecturer lecturing in front there but dont make any sense to me. haha.. i need some time la..
at 10am the lecturer gave us about 15 minutes break. can go upstairs to have coffee or tea & some biscuit.. i brought bread so i ate my bread. at there i meet new friends.=) hehe.. ok laa.. they are friendly..nice ppl... from there afterwards i went for my briefing. until 12. at 12 business law class ends. from 12 till 1 is lunch break.
at 1.30pm is Pendidikan Moral. umm..moral ok. in school also had moral. but coll moral better la. school moral have to remember so many nilai. haha..
i finish coll at 4.30pm.. & its raining heavily at that time. my dad came & fetch me. he's hungry.. so we went sg.buloh & had bak kut teh. then straight away went back malacca.

[misss_lingg]

3/27/2009

2009-03-27T00:00:00.001+08:00

good morning...
im awake. up..bath & ready d. hehe.. waiting for uncle cheng.
umm.. we didnt went to shah alam. but did in TP only. from 7 to 9 only. going shah alam on monday. i did the naik bukit...three point turn. about 8.30 we went to a coffee shop for a drink.=) he asked me to eat laa.. i dont take breakfast wan le. so i just drank milo.
so much to turn. hehe.. my hands are little tired today. came back home. i golek golek & slept little while more. 11 plus only woke up.
my mom & my sis took bus back to malacca today. tomorrow after my class then me, my dad & esther going back. tomorrow will be my 1st class.=)
at 6.20 my darling msg me. im so happy... hehe.. so long didnt hear from him. i miss u so muchh... muacks.. he's going to church now.
at 11pm..i pack my stuff for tomorrow 1st day. kinda nervous also.. later need to take out what to wear. so long didnt go to school. now have to use to waking up early & stuff.. umm..i hope tomorrow will be a nice day.

[misss_lingg]

3/26/2009

2009-03-26T00:00:00.002+08:00

i just woke up from nap. slept not long about an hour only. its was raining so so heavily. sobs.. im so scare... actually i went to bed at 3. at that time the sky is already so so dark. then about half an hour later it starts pouring. with so loud thunders & lightning. i tried going back to sleep. but cannot.. sobs.. the thunders & lightnings is really scaring me. so i came down. about 4 i went back up to sleep. when its not so heavily raining.
umm.. tomorrow i'll be having driving lesson 7 to 10 in the morning. 3 hours.. longgg.. bcos im going to shah alam to drive naik bukit..parking..three point turn. umm.. hope i'll drive perfectly fine...

[misss_lingg]

2009-03-25T18:33:00.002+08:00

When you can live forever what do you live for?

2009-03-25T14:33:00.009+08:00

twilight

Bella Swan has always been a little bit different. Never one to run with the crowd, Bella never cared about fitting in with the trendy, plastic girls at her Phoenix, Arizona high school. When her mother remarried and Bella chooses to live with her father in the rainy little town on Forks, Washington, she didn't expect much of anything to change. But things do change when she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen. For Edward is nothing like any boy she's ever met. He's nothing like anyone she's ever met, period. He's intelligent and witty, and he seems to see straight into her soul. In no time at all, they are swept up in a passionate and decidedly unorthodox romance - unorthodox because Edward really isn't like the other boys. He can run faster than a mountain lion. He can stop a moving car with his bare hands. Oh, and he hasn't aged since 1918. Like all vampires, he's immortal. That's right - vampire. But he doesn't have fangs - that's just in the movies. And he doesn't drink human blood.

2009-03-25T13:50:00.006+08:00

The Teaching Of Monk Ji Gong

Destiny in life is fainted, seeking for what?
What happens tomorrow will never be known to-day, pondering for what?
Not respecting the parents but respecting only the Buddha, respecting for what?
Brethrens and sisters are from the same breathe, fighting for what?
Children and grandchildren will have their own bliss, worrying for what?
Everymen has his day, hurrying for what?
Its a rare occasion in life that one can heartily laughs, depressing for what?
Patching up the openings to avoid the chill is adequate, extravagancy for what?
Its only a matter of passing through the three-inch passage way, craving for what?
Not a penny can be taken away upon death, stingy for what?
Land of predecessors shall be occupied by descendents, preoccupying for what?
You win some and you will lose some, greedy for what?
Deities are three feet above the head, cheating for what?
Wealth and nobility is like a mirage, exaggerating for what?
If you had not acquired the merits in the past life, you have to suffer in the present one, grumbling for what?
Gambling is without an end, gambling for what?
Administering the home diligently is better than seeking help from others, lavishing for what?
There is no end to revenge, grudging for what?
Life is like a game of chess, calculating for what?
Intelligence can be defeated by being intelligent, boasting for what?
When all lies end shall bliss takeover, lying for what?
The truth will prevail at the end, arguing for what?
Who can warrant that nothing happens, sarcastic for what?
Peace is withing a person and not at the grave, conspiring for what?
Taking advantage of others create the seed for disaster, helping others create the seed of bliss, forecasting for what?
Once the unexpected takes place everything will come to a halt, hurrying for what?

3/25/2009

2009-03-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

mom finish painting the whole stairs already. from up till down & down till up.=) the stairs looks shiny now. hehe..
she didnt cook dinner today. so we'll be going out for dinner. but i havent think of what's for dinner. hmm...
today's theres nothing much to post. im sorry... so till here.
good nights..

[misss_lingg]

3/24/2009

2009-03-24T00:00:00.002+08:00

good morning... i woke up at 10. its raining in the morning. it havent rain for quite some time.

today..i went to the institute to register. this saturday is my 1st day. & i got my timetable for my 1st semester.
came back home. my mommy wanna paint the stairs back. so i help her do the border. hehe.. & paste papers to WALK HERE arrow here arrow there. WALK AT YOUR OWN RISK. & DO NOT CROSS THE LINE! at 1st she wanna paint alternates the stairs. she asked me to try walking. aiks..cannot la. the steps so big. as it is d we all have to walk like sotong d. haha.. & she painted the stairs holders. so we can only walk...do not touch anything. maybe the wall.=)
after that i thought wanna go sleep. then mom ask me to prepare the chicken for dinner tonight. umm..so i did the chicken. but if tonight's chicken is tasteless dont blame me huh. haha..=)

at 10pm i follow my daddy went out makan. umm.. actually i feel like wanna makan too. but dinner time i ate so full d. the chicken is ok la. hehe.. bcos mom did tambah something after that. i dunno what. i took nap. & i did tambah nasi. so im full full.. went out with my daddy. i just drank plain water. & see him eating. & talk talk with him.

ok..im gonna oin oin soon. good nights

[misss_lingg]

I Miss You...

2009-03-23T17:01:00.001+08:00

I want to be with you,
but your millions of miles away.
i wish you would call just to ask about my day.
it would make things so much better if i could hear you voice,
I guess i can't complain too much, after all this was my choice.
i wish i could hold you in my arms and look in to your eyes.
i promise i will always be true to you and never tell you lies.
its so hard to go to sleep without you by my side.
my tears are the only thing ill ever try to hide.
i lie awake in bed as the tears stream down my face,
they keep going until the hit my pillow case.

I Miss You...

2009-03-23T11:50:00.002+08:00

3/23/2009

2009-03-23T00:00:00.001+08:00

[misss_lingg]

3/22/2009

2009-03-22T00:00:00.001+08:00

how are u doing there? umm.. my mama, uncles, aunties & cousins put a night in my hse. its 0146 in the morning now. yeap.. im still awake.=) waiting to get comp actually. & i dont want to be late posting again.
later at 2pm to 4pm im having my 1st driving lesson. hehe.. but im quite nervous too le.

im slept in the hall. umm.. i went upstairs & took my bolster & came down to the cushion to sleep.. can laa.. sleep in the hall. rarely also i get peaceful sleep on the cushion. maybe bcos i have bolster.

then in the morning we went sungai buloh to have b'fast. after b'fast went back my hse. then my mama, uncles, aunties & cousins went back malacca.
not long after that. at 2 my driving lesson teacher.(uncle cheng) came & fetch me from my hse. hehe.. he tought my mommy too before. he drive to TP. tell me about how to get started..
1st-adjust the seat & step on the clutch
2nd-check the front & side mirrors
3rd-the seat belts
4th-check the gear..make sure its in free gear
5th-start the car..check the wiper & signal lights

umm.. he said that my 1st time driving is ok.=) hehe.. so i drive round..round & round... TP! but i dont really pay attention on where am i. just concentrating on the road & driving. then he ask me to drive to the main road. im driving around USJ then.. round..round... hehe..
when its almost 4 i drive back home. umm.. my 1st time driving back home.=) uncle told me to tell my mom dont worry. i can drive. only at the traffic light..my weakness. haha.. yeah.. i told him myself too that. im most nervous when at the traffic light. other than that im ok. stering..gear.. all ok.. while driving also mati enjin once at the traffic light. USJ12 school there. after that ok d la. i can do better better more the next lesson.(this friday) i will...^^

when i came back home. everyone was sleeping. hehe.. im hungry.. ate maggi. sighs.. no more maggi for the week la. i been eating maggi everyday. sighs.. unhealthy food.. got to stop. 2moro chicken rice for brunch.

[misss_lingg]

3/21/2009

2009-03-21T00:00:00.001+08:00

im sorry.. bcos today i started blog late.

i left my hse at 5. i said bye bye to my room d. its my last weekend there. the next time is when i have my break. then i will drive down myself & stay there longer. hehe.. i will bring u too.=)
went my mama hse. & everyone got into the car. then we heading to KLIA.. at there we meet my daddy & sisters.
it is the 1st time GG is in the airport & flying.

after that the rest went back to my hse. & i got a stupid news from my sister. that the dog peed on my bed. what the... i got so dame frustrated. she said that the maid let the dog go bcos she's dame noisy. then..dunno how stupid it is. it can come up to my room. OH GOSH!! im so dame mad now.. my head is totally blowing off.. all i can think of is going back home! NOW!! dame.. what the hell is the maid doing? she's really getting too much. & its really getting on my nerves. the dog is making hell of a noise. so she just let go like that? without unreasonable answer how she manage get into my room?? so.. wait! wait..till i get really mad! i can be really nasty.. if i get really mad, i'll throw her out the hse then! dame.. wanna work, do proper job la. here we are treating her so nice d. yet no appreciation?? since u wanna go back so much, this december..get the hell out off here then! dont do such work till like this..

then.. when i get back. i just waiting to get down from the car. then i went into the hse 1st. there she was standing right in front of me. i put my bag down. & went upstairs.. & i asked her, what have u done to my bed??
&& what the... she just answer me nothing..& went to sleep. dame!
im really really piss off.. wait..till the morning comes. just see what i shall do to her.

[misss_lingg]

3/20/2009

2009-03-20T00:00:00.001+08:00

i woke up at 1030. tonight dunno i can go back malacca or not. sobs.. mommy said i might not be going bcos no space. sobs.. i wanna go le. after this i dunno when i got time to go back. GG is flying on the saturday 9pm. i wanna go send her. but now..i dunno how le.
then in the morning jove told me, she's gonna drive today. so im also thinking about mine. when am i gonna start? i called the office lady. asked her for the uncle no. then i called him.. actually i wanna start today also. but he said cannot. today full d. so i told him monday lor.=)
i will drive safely k. dont worry darling. jove said dont langgar any souls. i told her see lor. good souls or bad ones. haha..

yeah.. i did went back malacca. my daddy's friend send us to pudu. bcos i daddy dont want to drive us there. he said at those hours. KL jam.. umm..in pudu. haizz.. i dont like that place. mommy also dont like. she also scare of the place there. so am i laa.. sighs..
we went there. trying to get ticket. but the earliest can get is 8pm or 9pm. aiyoo.. at that time its only 6. wanna wait so long at pudu meh? so scary.. then suddenly this one man come. he asked want go malacca ah? NOW!! NOW! 6.30 pushing off.. so we follow him. see the bus. then got up lor.
sitting in the bus so long.. for 4 hours. ouchh.. my bum bum also paining la. the bus go thru alor gajah toll. then to masjid tanah.. sg.undang.. klebang.. haizz.. satu malacca we go.. 10 something only reach. we were the last get up the bus but..the 1st get down! haha.. me 1st laa.. i cannot tahan sit so long d. & im hungry..
&& im starting driving on the sunday..=)

[misss_lingg]

3/19/2009

2009-03-19T00:00:00.001+08:00

[misss_lingg]

2009-03-13T22:49:00.004+08:00

when i walk a way from you mad - *follow me
when i stare at your lips - *kiss me
when i push you or hit you - *grab me and don't let go
when i start cursing at you - *kiss me, and tell me you love me
when i'm quiet - *ask me what's wrong
when i ignore you - *give me your attention
when i pull away - *pull me back
when you see me at my worst - *tell me i'm beautiful
when you see me crying - *hold me and don't let go
when you see me walking - *sneak up and hug my waist from behind
when i'm scared - *protect me
when i lay my head on your shoulder - *tilt my head up and kiss me
when i steal your favourite shirt - *let me keep it and sleep with it
when i tease you - *tease me back and make me laugh
when i don't answer for a very long time - *reassure me that everything is okay
when i look at you with doubt - *back yourself up with the truth
when i say that i like you - *i really do more than you could understand
when i grab your hands - *hold mine and play with my fingers
when i tell you a secret - *keep it safe and untold
when i miss you - *i am hurting inside
when you break my heart - *the pain never really goes away
when i say it's over - *i still want you to be mine
stay on the phone with me even if i don't say anything
don't let me have the last word
say that you love me more than i could ever love you
argue that i am the best girl ever
when i'm mad, hug me tight and don't let go
when i say i'm okay, don't believe me and talk to me
when i say i'm sorry, i really mean it
call me at 12 am on my birthday to tell me you love me
call me before you sleep and after you wake up
treat me like i'm everything to you
watch my favourite movie or show with me even if you think it's stupid
give me the world
when i'm bored and sad, hang out with me
let me know i'm important to you
when i run up at you crying, the first thing you say is "who's ass am i kicking today baby?"

better in time

2009-03-12T23:53:00.003+08:00

today..
i never expected this day. at 1st.. we took exams together. in the same school.. in the same class.. & also sitting not far away. just 5 steps away.
& today... we are taking results together. went to school together. & seeing the results together. side by side..
when i got my results im very glad that i didnt failed any. eventhough it is not as nice as it seems. but what had done is done. & 3 months had passed.. we cant change anything.
then u got ur results too. i know it is an unsatisfactory.
but i know u did the best..
& i know we see many ppl are getting better. look.. these are just grades. some ppl can get many A's but in the end dont succeed in life. whats & where is the point??

now.. we can do better. we will do better better more after this k. never give up.. the sky will be our limits.
dont ever let urself down or let others pull u down.. today is just SPM results. in future there will be many more challenges.

SPM results

2009-03-12T23:29:00.004+08:00

nothing like this before..
i never felt nothing in the world like this before...

finally..
it is the day the results are out. um.. i got up in the morning. alarm at 7. but got up at 8. haha..
im so scare to see the results.. 3 months had passed. cant remember what i had written on the exam sheets. & here today..taking the results. sighs..
went to school. without parents.. felt so much better. but still was so worried..
it came out so late. hehe..
there i was standing beside the teacher. didnt expect she would give my results so fast. in a sudden.. & there it is the piece of paper of my results in my hand.

um.. ok la.
i thought i would had got worst. haha.. after that straight away went back home. um.. mom is at home. but dad is off to work. i showed her the results & she said ok la. =)
then she told me to call my daddy.. so i told him everything. he didnt said much & said ok too. =)
my darling.. so worried there. sobs.. i know how u feel. but we did our best ok. we sit for SPM for once only. do the best.. & here the results are out. um.. finally.. done with the results d. we move to the next stage now k.

do it, do it

2009-03-10T23:27:00.005+08:00

Leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember! Don't send a message, leave a comment on here. Next, re-post this in your posts and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty cool (and funny) to see the responses.

I would really appreciate you guys doing this.

1. How long have you known me?
2. When and how did we meet?
3. What was your first impression upon meeting / seeing me?
4. Did you like me at all?
5. Do you still think that way about me now?
6. When's the last time you met / saw me?
7. What reminds you of me?
8. What is my best attribute?
9. Will I end up being successful in the future?
10. Do you think I can dance?
11. Am I misunderstood by many?
12. Have you ever had a crush on me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. What do I listen to the most?
15. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?

the a's of mine

2009-03-10T22:16:00.016+08:00

It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own post, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag ten people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name: Audrey

2. A four Letter Word: Ambitious

3. A boy's Name: Aaron

4. A girl's Name: Abby

5. An occupation: Accountant

6. A color: Amber

7. Something you'll wear: Accessories

8. A food: Asam pedas `lol xP

9. Something found in the bathroom: Aloe Vera Oil Hair Vitamin `lol thats the best i can come out with...cant think anymore

10. A place: Australia

11. A reason for being late: Another bad day

12. Something you'd shout: AARON! I LOVE YOU!

13. A movie title: Alvin and the Chipmunks

14. Something you drink: Apple Juice

15. A musical group: ABBA

16. An animal: Alligator

17. A street name: (Jalan) Alor `haha.. some jalan i used the net to find

18. A type of car: Audi

19. The title of a song: Away by Enrique Iglesias

20. Tag 10 people:

My-Dil-Goes.

2009-03-10T22:01:00.001+08:00

she comes walking like this, as though she is staying in heaven

she looks at everyone like this as though she is bearing everyone

but when she gets angry and starts showing her eyes

fighting she smiles by mistake

my heart goes mmmmmmmmm

when i speak to him, i feel as though he is gonna sleep

whenever he awakes from his sleep, looks like he is gonna cry

but when quitely he awakes me from his sleep

he embraces me in my arms and then he falls himself

yes she keeps saying no

yes she acts smart

yes she is a little stubborn

yes she is a little gone case with her brain

everyone comes she comes, if no one comes she goes

such twisted talks she troubles me with

before time she comes, she does not want to listen any excuse

but she looks at my paths everyday

yes in movies he cries

yes he sleeps with his mouth wide open

yes he is a little un good

yes he is worth getting beaten up

god knows wht he says, god knows wht he does

he climbs on the sofa and plays with the curtains

when u do a clean up of the house u feel ur in trouble

then when he gets tired and tries a relax

yes she is a little different

yes she is a little wrong

she will be like this i dint think like tht

he will be like this i dint think like tht

why do i feel he is my own

is this true or is it a dream

im scared that it mite turn out to be a lie

Quiz: What’s Your Disaster IQ?

2009-03-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

Your disaster IQ is Medium

You’re doing a good job, but you’ve got a little room for improvement. Everyone knows about fires in California or floods on the Mississippi, but disaster can strike anywhere. No matter where you live, you’re at risk for something. You’re in pretty good shape to survive an emergency, but there’s always more you can do to protect yourself. Make sure you stay informed about local conditions and confirm that your survival kit is up-to-date. Stay prepared and informed and we expect you’ll be sitting pretty no matter what comes at you.

2009-03-08T22:08:00.002+08:00

2009-03-07T12:39:00.000+08:00

2009-03-07T02:12:00.007+08:00

The Evening Is Redolent With Wine And Seduction
Body And Heart Are Molten
The Atmosphere Is Colorful And Addictive
Yet There Is A Restlessness
Why Does The Heart Beat So, Why Does It Say
The Crazy Lover Has No Idea As Yet
What's To Happen Tonight?
What Will Be Gained, What Will Be Lost?

I screwed up 54% of my teenage life lol!`xD

2009-03-06T19:31:00.004+08:00

[] Gotten detention.
[] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[] Gotten suspended.
[] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[] Gotten caught cheating on a test.

Total:

[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
[x] Didn’t do homework over 5 times
[x] Turned at least 3 projects in late
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.

Total : 4

[] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.

Total : 7

[] Pulled down the Fire Alarm.
[x] Went on Myspace , Facebook , Xanga , etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took Pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during School hours.
[x] Listened to an iPod , CD , etc... During class.

Total : 11

[] Threw something at the teacher
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.

Total : 15

[] Gotten a call from school.
[] Couldn’t go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[x] Didn’t take your stuff to school.
[] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear.

Total : 16

[] Faked your parents signature .
[x] Slept in class.
[] Cursed at a teacher to their face.
[x] Copied homework

Total : 18

MULTIPLY BY THREE : 18x3=54%

Then Repost this & put the Title as "I screwed up ___% of my teenage life"

what is now

2009-03-06T13:17:00.005+08:00

um..what is life mean to us?

what is LOVE mean to us??

everyone has different opinion & perspective about it..its complicated...

no one can say right or wrong to it.

& me...im just living by me...myself...
i had enough what everyone would think or trying to be..

so i will just be ME for now..

um..lately im doing a lot of quizzes. hehe.. its nice to know about urself. well..u should try. just answer truthfully. mostly the results are true. & eventhough u denied it..u never know its actually true about u. =) i had link it on my blog. wanna know about ur career..money..or education? test urself..
so have fun taking the quizzes...

so fast its march already. haizz..no long more results will be out. then everyone will start moving to their own directions.. time flies really fast. thats what i dont like. haha.. but what are we capable of? we can never stop nor paused time..
i really misses lots of things.. hehe..those good old times..

memories...
i will never forget..no matter what.. im a person who remember & remember.. sighs... thats why its hurting sometimes.

.im out of words..

Quiz: What Are You Greedy For?

2009-03-05T22:01:00.001+08:00

Love

You've got butterflies in your stomach, you can't stop smiling, and you could swear that you're the luckiest person in the world. Sound familiar? It could only be one thing — love! And no matter how much you've got, it probably feels like you will never get enough, right? From smoldering crushes to even cuddlier dates, you're the kind of person who loves to want and feel wanted.

Money can't buy love, but that doesn't stop you from working to get it. Caring and affectionate, you know there's no such thing as too much. And while you might be a little sappy or sentimental now and again, there's no way anyone's going to fault you for having your heart in the right place. After all, you know what they say — the best way to get love is to give it. So go out there and get what you want!

Quiz: What’s Your Office Fashion Style?

2009-03-05T21:56:00.001+08:00

Your office fashion style is Flirty

The fun-killers in your Human Resources department may say that flirting is inappropriate behavior in the workplace, but you know that you can still get your point across without even saying a word. You want your style to get you noticed by all the right people, right? Not management, silly, the really cute guys! While you are usually all business when it comes to actually getting work done, you know that having fun is also an important part of your day, and enjoy taking little breaks and making friends. Your personality is probably as charming as your outfits, and we bet you’re usually the life of the party. So keep it up!

Quiz: Could You Graduate From High School?

2009-03-05T21:51:00.001+08:00

You’d graduate A Little Late

Uh oh, looks like somebody had better spend a little more time in study hall. We hate to say it, but don’t make any Ivy League plans any time soon. Looks like you’ve got a little study hall time to spend before you can graduate from high school. Too much time ditching class? A little concentration problem? Whatever the reason, you clearly have more exciting things to do than hit the books. Still, have you ever thought about going back to school? You might have a little fun, you know!

Quiz: Could You Pass 5th Grade?

2009-03-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

Excellent

You did so well you might actually be in 5th grade right now! Or are you a 5th grade teacher? Either way, you've definitely got what it takes to make the grade in the classroom — and beyond! Book smart and motivated, you're probably the type to make sure you're always on time for class or work (or even that hot date!), and can't wait to read the new book that everyone's been talking about.

That's not to say you're a brown-noser. Not even close. You just love to know stuff — whether it's relevant or not. Who cares if you'll never have to know that a dolphin sleeps with one eye open or that a sneeze can travel at over 100 miles per hour. So if you don't mind, can we copy your test answers from now on?

100 ME

2009-03-05T19:31:00.009+08:00

1. Last beverage→ vitagen
2. Last phone call→ joveen
3. Last text message→ joveen
4. Last song you listened to → over you by daughtry
5. Last time you cried→ recently

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice → Nope
2. Been cheated on?→ Yup
3. Kissed someone?→ Yup
4. Lost someone special?→ Yeah
5. Been depressed?→ Yes definitely
6. Been drunk and threw up? → Never Drunk

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Blue
2. Red
3. Green
4. Black and White

HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends → Yes
2. Fallen out of love → Perhaps
3. Laughed until you cried → Yes, not till i cry
4. Met someone who changed you→ Yeah
5. Found out who your true friends were → Yeah
6. Found out someone was talking about you → Yes..
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list → NOPE
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life → MANY
9. How many kids do you want to have→ 2 or 3
10. Do you have any pets → YEAH
11. Do you want to change your name→ Nope
12. What did you do for your last birthday → received a special gift..
13. What time did you wake up today → 1105AM
14. What were you doing at midnight last night → online..doing quizzes
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for --> my license.. a car
16. Last time you saw your father→ seeing him now
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → turn back time..
18. What are you listening to right now → how could an angel break my heart by toni braxton and babyface
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → No
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → Nothing
24. Most visited webpage → Facebook and Hotmail

1. What's your name→ Audrey
2. Nicknames→ Ling
3. Relationship Status → Single :)
4. Zodiac sign→ Leo
5. Male or female or transgendered→ female
6. Primary→ Convent Infant Jesus(1), SKSS
7. Middle School → SMK USJ4
8. High school → SMK USJ4
10. Hair color → Black and dark browns?
11. Long or short → Long
16. Height → dunno..
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → none
18: What do you like about yourself? → caring..& friendly
19. Piercings → none
20. Tattoos → Never!
21. Righty or lefty → Righty

FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → None
23. First piercing → no piercing
24. First best friends → jove..hehe =)
26. First sport you joined → netball
27. First pet → doggie
28. First vacation→ dun remember...been to too many places
29. First concert → Never been to a concert
30. First crush → haha..we go way back! i dun remember...

RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating → just eaten dinner
50. Drinking → nothing
51. Already missing - myself...
52. I'm about to → do more quizzes
53. Listening to → miss you by aaliyah
55. Waiting for → jove come online...

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? → OF COURSE!
59. Want to get married? → perhaps so??
60. Careers in mind? → business

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. Lips or eyes → Eyes
69. Hugs or kisses → Hugs
70. Shorter or taller → either la..i dun mind
71. Older or Younger → close enough to my age...not too old..young nvm xP
72. Romantic or spontaneous → romantic
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms
74. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive
75. Hook-up or relationship → Depends
77. Trouble maker or hesitant→ neither one

HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → NOPE
79. Drank hard liquor → Never
80. Lost Glasses/contacts - I don't need those
81. Had sex on 1st date - HELL..NO!
82. Broken someone's heart → Yeah
83. Had your own heart broken → Yes
85. Been arrested → Not Yet
86. Turned someone down → Yes
87. Cried when someone died → Yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → NO!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → Sometimes
90. Miracles → waiting for one
91. Love at first sight → maybe?
92. Heaven → yeah
93. Santa Clause → No
95. Kiss on the first date? → No
96. Angels → Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → nope
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → nope
100. Posting this as 100 ME? → Yeah

Quiz: The Brain Test

2009-03-05T13:28:00.008+08:00

Balanced-brained

That means you are able to draw on the strengths of both the right and left hemispheres of your brain, depending upon a given situation.

When you need to explain a complicated process to someone, or plan a detailed vacation, the left hemisphere of your brain, which is responsible for your ability to solve problems logically, might kick in. But if you were critiquing an art opening or coming up with an original way to file papers, the right side of your brain, which is responsible for noticing subtle details in things, might take over.

While many people have clearly dominant left- or right-brained tendencies, you are able to draw on skills from both hemispheres of your brain. This rare combination makes you a very creative and flexible thinker.

The down side to being balanced-brained is that you may sometimes feel paralyzed by indecision when the two hemispheres of your brain are competing to solve a problem in their own unique ways.

turn back the clock

2009-03-05T03:33:00.006+08:00

look at the time.. lol..
um..was doing 8 quizzes in 2hrs. =)

it was fun anyways. reading the results. its pretty true..

i can go all night doing this. haha..
by then finish la all the quizzes. none left..

continue 2moro...

to sleep now. good nights..

Quiz: How Considerate Are You?

2009-03-05T03:04:00.000+08:00

You’re Extremely Considerate

Congratulations, Miss (or Mr!) Manners! You’re definitely at the head of the class when it comes to manners. You probably make it a habit to be considerate of others, whether they’re your closest friends or total strangers, and people have noticed. While you can have a manners slip-up from time to time (who doesn’t?) you usually take time out to make people feel appreciated and try to take everyone’s feelings into account. Good job!

Quiz: What's Your Savings Style?

2009-03-05T02:56:00.000+08:00

Right Path

You're on target with your savings style. From things like making savings goals, to keeping your credit in good shape, to comparison shopping for the best prices, you know that there are little strategies out there that can have a large impact on your bottom line.

We're not necessarily saying you're perfect — I mean anyone can fall prey to large impulse buys from time to time. It's just that people with your savings style know that if you overspend in one area, you should underspend in another. Balancing and setting your budget is just a numbers game. And as along as you understand the implications of spend vs. save, you're in pretty good shape. So whether you're setting your financial goals for next month, next year, or for your retirement, you're on your way to making a great statement with your savings style.

Quiz: How Organized Are You?

2009-03-05T02:45:00.000+08:00

You are Super Organized

Congratulations! A place for everything and everything in its place seems to be your motto. You usually know what you should be working on at any given moment and have all the tools you need right at hand. We have to say that people are probably envious of your knack of meeting deadlines without breaking a sweat, leaving work on time, and having the neatest desk in the office. We’d ask how you do it, but we already know how — organization!

Quiz: How Do You Connect?

2009-03-05T02:37:00.001+08:00

The Gossip

If someone's looking for a new gossip columnist, they'd know just who to call. Or maybe you'd call them first since you're always on top of the latest buzz. You're all ears when there's some hot news to discuss — or spread.

You probably never leave home without your phone (I mean, what if something comes up?) And it wouldn't surprise us if you're the type to spend long hours emailing and instant messaging your friends. When you get a juicy bit of knowledge, who are you to keep it all to yourself? It's only fair to let others know what's going on too. While your tendency to spread the news might get you into trouble on occasion, your heart's usually in the right place — people can see that. And regardless of your occasional blabs, your audience will no doubt look forward to what you're going to say next.

Quiz: Does Your Self-Esteem Need a Makeover?

2009-03-05T02:36:00.001+08:00

Off the Charts

Like they say, beauty is only skin deep. Having the coolest jacket, most awesome shoes, or nicest hair isn't everything. But it looks like you've got the whole package! Just remember, being confident is one thing, but thereis such a thing as being over-confident. You seem to be teetering on that fine line.

Sure, putting your best foot forward is important, but it doesn't mean you have to spend tons of time or money on that stuff. You know it's what on the inside that really counts. So, free up your primp and prep time and start using it for a better (and longer lasting) cause — your inner beauty. It'll defy aging and bring you happiness!

Quiz: How Do You Handle Danger?

2009-03-05T02:07:00.000+08:00

You handle danger with Brains

It looks like you’re the kind of hero who stops and thinks before charging in. When the unexpected strikes, you’re likely to be the person with a plan, and if you don’t have one you’ll usually come up with a great idea on the spot. Concentration is probably your strong suit, as is having a sense of the big picture. While you can have your less-than-brilliant moments from time to time (ever lock your keys in the car? Forget an appointment? Admit it!), you’re usually more than on top of things, and first to respond in an emergency. So we’ll take this chance to say thanks for all you do!

Quiz: What's Your True Color?

2009-03-05T01:26:00.000+08:00

Green

You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy.People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!

Quiz: The Classic IQ Test

2009-03-05T00:36:00.000+08:00

Precision Processor

Your IQ Score is: 120

You've got a very experiential way of learning and a strong mathematical mind. You're able to whittle even the most complex situation down to comprehensible component parts. In short, you have mastered the art and science of precision. That's what makes you a Precision Processor.

For you, life is a series of equations. Your brain is naturally predisposed to intense mathematical acuity, and your understanding of numerical problems is unparalleled. It's second nature for you to cut to the heart of an issue, so that you can discover quick solutions to problems while others get bogged down in unnecessary details. One Precision Processor that comes to mind is the Greek philosopher-mathematician, Pythagoras. Pythagoras had a mind for numbers and, as such, could come up with previously unknown theories like his method for calculating the sides of a right triangle (a2+b2=c2). You too, can use numbers to translate aspects of the world around you — something that doesn't come easily to everyone. Your quick mathematical mind will allow you to communicate a variety of ideas to other people, so don't keep it to yourself.

Precision Processors can apply their mathematical skills to any situation involving numbers. That's a talent that will come in handy for everything from the workplace to splitting a bill 12 ways to converting foreign currency in your head. Others often look to you to do the math and luckily, you're well equipped.

no way about it

2009-03-03T11:44:00.004+08:00

this time...im giving it all up..

either she, me or maybe another..neither anyone of us also can decide for u nor forced u into anything. no matter what i always wish all of u all the happiness..

this time...i will be standing & doing it all alone on my own..

i know i cant make u happy or be happy with u. its alright now..i will be just happy enough watching u being happy with someone else. this is not ur fault. u had done everything.. mostly everything also u did. not me.. im just practically nothing..

she must be waited long already. give her chance yea?
i know u will have some circumstances about those times & today..time really flies..
we also ages day by day. things might change for both of u..
she deserves u..she makes u happy..which i can never give..till today.

so take care of urself..ur health..dont forget to eat..& i wish u all the time healthy & safe no matter where u are..have a nice trip & come back safely..

building hopes

2009-03-02T09:19:00.000+08:00

** Feel good about yourself.

** Be positive and focus on positive aspects.

** Avoid seeking self-pity and sympathy.

** Display a brave front and don't slouch.

** Groom yourself decently and love yourself.

** Identify your successes and celebrate them.

** Be in the company of successful and positive people.

** Believe in yourself and your confidence will grow.

** Dress in cheerful colours to enhance your self esteem.

** Avoid events that dampen your mood and feeling.

** Smile more often and accept compliments gracefully.

** Start each day fresh with hope and self-assurance.

** Keep your inner voice positive and remove self doubt.

** Stop worrying and change the way you perceive yourself.

** Don't allow external situation to disturb your focus and goals.

** Be appreciative with what your have, because insecurity ruins confidence.

** Tell yourself you are creative, strong, smart, beautiful and talented until you believe it.

how can you mend

2009-02-25T21:34:00.002+08:00

broken hearts...

- you need time and space to get over things

- experience new things

- find new friends

- believe in yourself

- stirring memories will make it tougher

- don't talk about new relationships with him/her

- you can't force the relationship

- decide why you want him/her in your life

- if it's revenge it won't work

- don't compare relationships

- if it doesn't work you've always got your old friends

yeeah..u 49! whooaa

2009-02-25T15:41:00.005+08:00

yeah..
im so happy today..i PASSED!! YEAHH!!...

49..^^

i aimed 50 but i got 49. well..im so happy already. its enough...

last i took it i got less ONE to pass..
today..
i got less ONE to perfect...hehe..

my happy ending..49!

2009-02-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

我终于还是说了一句我爱你还记得那个微凉夜里天空正飘着小雨
心跳的声音像舞动奇迹
你看着我说千万不要爱上你因为你只会让我伤心别傻了快点喊停
你那么冷静忽远又忽近
我知道我对你来说也许太年轻我想我猜我问我终于了解
原来为爱流的眼泪也是种甜蜜滋味
只想爱你当我和你走在一起就已经决定不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己可以为爱那么坚定
只想爱你好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定究竟爱我还是逃避 Sorry 我还是不会放弃爱你

Wo zhong yu hai shi shou le yi ju wo ai ni
Hai ji de na ge wei liang ye li tian kong zheng piao zhe xiao yu
Xin tiao de sheng yin xiang wu dong qi ji
Ni kan zhe wo shuo qian wan bu yao ai shang ni
Yin wei ni zhi hui rang wo shang xin bie sha le kuai dian han ting
Ni na me leng jing hu yuan you hu jin
Wo zhi dao wo dui ni lai shuo ye xu tai nian qing
Wo xiang wo cai wo wen wo zhong yu liao jie
Yuan lai wei ai liu de yan lei ye shi zhong tian mi zi wei

Zhi xiang ai ni
Dang wo he ni zou zai yi qi jiu jing yi jue ding
Bu kan bu ting bu wen ye bu hui fang qi
Shi ni rang wo liao jie zi ji
Ke yi wei ai na me jian ding

Zhi xiang ai ni
Hao xiang mei tian zheng kai yan jing jiu neng kan dao nin
Wo zhi dao wo ou er you yi dian ren xing
Bu guan ni zuo ren he jue ding
Jiu jing ai wo hai shi tao bi
Sorry wo hai shi bu hui fang qi ai ni

i hatee..u 41!

2009-02-19T20:40:00.012+08:00

sighs..
in the morning i woke up at 7. shower..& get ready.
come down & just wait for time to past..
i didnt took anything also..
then when its time..left hse & went usj2.
waited till they fetch us to take the exam..its at ss15

& got 41.. dame..

i hate the no.41 now. lol!
giving me nightmares..
now i have to retake bcos fail by 1 question..sobs..

came back & ate maggi. come online & put up a stupid post about a stupid day of stupid 41!!
then i go take nap..

so hard to sleep. my darling put me to sleep.. hehe.. thank you..
slept at 2 then while i was sleeping..it was raining heavily..
thunders & lightnings...so scary..
i just sleep lor..so tired & disappointed today somemore..sobs..

woke up at 5. dinner at 7. then i did read back the undang book..dame..
i saw some of my wrong answers..
sighs..
if i had correct atleast ONE of it i wont need to retake.dame..

i feel like tearing to book too lor..haha..
but my darling said...i cant do that..
yeah..hehe..he knows me. i dont tear book lor..
but aiyooo..really geram la.haha..

dame..crap!

2009-02-19T11:40:00.008+08:00

well..today is about taking the undang exam..
dame...what a day..shit!
passing mark is 42

&

&

&
&

i got 41..
what the....

if its 40 i would had not much to say. but 41! dame..
so long i wanna take the exam already..delay & delay..
& failed..sighs..

wanted to take last saturday(14/2)
but had funeral..so really cant make it la..
so well..fine..went today & FAILED!!!...

2009-02-17T21:38:00.007+08:00

I can't sleep,
everything i ever knew,
Is a lie,
without you,

I can't breathe,
when my heart is broke in two,
There's no beat,
without you,

You're not gone,
but you're not here,
At least that's the way it seems tonight,
If we could try to end these wars,
I know that we can make it right,
cause baby,

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more,

How can I leave,
when everything that I adore,
and everything I'm living for,
it's in you,

I can't dream,
sleepless nights have got me bad,
The only dream i ever had,
is being with you,

I know that we can make it right,
It's gonna take a little time,
Lets not leave ourselves with no way out,
lets not cross that line,(that line)

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more,

Remember that i made a vow,
that i would never let you go,
I meant it then, I mean it now,
and i want to tell you so,

I don't wanna fight no more, (oh no)
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
(can we start)
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more...

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for, (oh yeah)
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
(my heart)
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
(I'm hoping)
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more.......

It's all a lie,
Without you,
without you......

the last goodbye

2009-02-14T21:32:00.005+08:00

he's gone forever...
today..
but however..he will always be remember by all of us..
um..my late grandfather. is 93 yrs old..
guess he's live his life happily..
may him rest in peace now..
he's a great great grandfather already..=)

that make me a grandauntie.. hehe..

well..everyone will go when the time comes. then there will be new borns and next generations..

2009-02-14T00:50:00.001+08:00

2009-02-14T00:48:00.000+08:00

R.I.P.

2009-02-13T01:22:00.001+08:00

my grandfather's time is up...sighs..
he's gone yesterday 11-02-2009 @ 9:44PM...
didnt know it would be so soon..

may his soul rest in peace...

2009-02-05T16:05:00.002+08:00

2009-02-05T15:29:00.003+08:00

live your life...
you're gonna be a shining star...

to love a person is easy...but to be loved back is hard....
because it depends on the other person..
u cant control his/her feels..
all the world is a stage..
and everyone has their part..
u live life only once..everyone dies in the end..no one lives forever..a day will come for u to go..
life is like a play on the stage..
yesterday had gone..today also will be gone..& 2moro will come..
this goes on & on...
time cant be turn back..u can try turn back the clock..but u know...u are just lying to urself..

so live ur life the way u wanted..not others want to see..be urself..
believe in whatever u believe in..dont let others decide to say it will never happen..or last..

we as humans all do mistakes... forgive..& learn from every fall..
then.. MOVE ON
because there is plenty more that life has to offer you out there...

live and let live

2009-02-05T14:06:00.007+08:00

i have left nothing in me.. no more rooms of love. but only hatess..
i have lost all hopes, faith, dreamss.. all!! everything...

plss.. dont anyone find me. im not there.. im not here..
i'm lost... lost forever......

2009-02-05T09:36:00.001+08:00

dream..
dream the undream...
until the morning ..

for about a week im like a lost soul. stay up until late 2 or 3 in the morning..
like a walking body.. with no heart no feels..no . . nothing..
& the next day waking up late..11 onwards. sighs..
i just dunno.. my heart is totally broken into pieces. i keep falling & falling..& i cant find myself..my missing pieces. where am i?
every night i have dreams. weird dreams..
i have dreams but i dont remember the faces..

last night i dream of a mermaid. man mermaid.. haha..
i dunno did it ever exist or not. but thats just my dream..
we swim deep in the ocean.. which is so beautiful.. the water is so clear..

firstly..i do swim. but i dont swim much. i dont deep site. most of the time playing water. haha.. thats real me.
that dream..i dunno...

2009-02-05T08:37:00.003+08:00

have i lost my mind...
well i don't know..

sighs.. i took my 5hrs kursus a week before cny.
at that time i did study the book.. frequently..
but now..i havent been looking at the book also.
so now i dunno when am i gonna be taking my exam.

god..i just dunno whatever happen to me la.

lost my mind? um..i guess not only that.
i have lost myself...
i have lost all feels.. no mood.. i just dunno what to do.
i cant feel anything.. i cant think..cant remember anything..

2009-02-02T23:41:00.000+08:00

Anything for you
Though you're not here
Since you said we're through
It seems like years
Time keeps dragging on and on
And forever's been and gone
Still I can't figure what went wrong

I'd still do anything for you
I'll play your game
You hurt me through and through
But you can have your way

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though you'll never see me cryin'
You know inside I feel like dying

And I'd do anything for you
In spite of it all
I've learned so much from you
You made me strong
But don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

I hope you find someone to please you
Someone who'll care and never leave you
But if that someone ever hearts you
You just might need a friend to turn to

And I'd do anything for you
I'll give you up
If that's what I should do
To make you happy

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though inside I feel like dying
You know you'll never see me cryin'

Don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

2009-02-02T16:03:00.004+08:00

Just like a shadow
I'll be beside you
I'll be your comfort
I'm there to guide you home
I will provide you a place of shelter
I want a be your zone
I'll act as if you do
Tell me what you wanted me to do

2009-01-26T09:50:00.000+08:00

45 things a girl wants but wont ask for...

2009-01-23T16:20:00.002+08:00

1. Touch her waist.

2. Actually talk to her.

3. Share secrets with her.

4. Give her your jacket.

5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.

7. Hold her.

8. Laugh with her.

9. Invite her somewhere.

10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..

11. Smile with her.

12. Take pictures with her.

13. Pull her onto your lap.

14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.

15. When her friends say "I love her more than you", deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends.

It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.

17. Kiss her unexpectedly.

18. Hug her from behind around the waist.

19. Tell her she's beautiful.

20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.

22. Tell her she's your everything - only if you mean it.

23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.

25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..

26. Don't lie to her.

27. DON'T cheat on her.

28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.

29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.

30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT'S IMPORTANT.

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold you too.

32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.

33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).

34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don't ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If she's upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..

36. When people tease her, stand up for her.

37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.

38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.

39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.

40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.

41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.

42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.

43. Take her for long walks at night.

44. Always remind her how much you love her.

45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you're sitting on her.

2009-01-21T11:26:00.002+08:00

[01] Are you currently in a relationship?

Yes.

[02] Have you ever been given a rose?

nope.. im still waiting for my 1st rose

[03] What is your all-time favorite love story movie?
Titanic

[04] Are you in love right now?

Yup.

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul mate?

Yes. there is always one person for a person out there.. i found mine

[06] What's your current problem?

sighs.. i dunno. im just feeling down. so lonely

[07] Have you ever had your heart broken?

Yes.

[08] Your thoughts on online or long distance relationships?

not easy. u need to built up strong relationships & have trust & faith with each other

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?

not many

[10] The person you're with right now, do you want to spend your life with?

YES please

[11] How many kids do you want to have?

2 or maybe 3

[12] What is/are your favorite color/s?
many.. it depends

[13] Who is your celebrity crush?

none

[14] Do you believe you truly only love once?

i dont understand

[15] Imagine you're 40 & your spouse just died, would you get re-married?

No. I will live by myself then

[16] Do u believe in love at first sight?

no? yes? i dunno..

[17] What song u want to be played at your wedding ?

Martina McBride - I Love You.

[18] Do you like anyone?

i dont like. but i love u

2009-01-21T09:50:00.001+08:00

◘ Starting time:

Ω 0950am

◘ Name:

Ω Audrey

◘ Sister/s

Ω 2

◘ brother/s

Ω none

◘ Shoe size:

Ω 5

◘ What are you wearing right now?

Ω clothes?

◘ Where do you live?

Ω usj

◘ Favorite Numbers:

Ω 2, 8

◘ Favorite Drinks

Ω coke..orange juice

◘ Favorite Months:

Ω i dunno

◘Favorite Breakfast:

Ω rarely taking b'fast

------ Have You Ever ------

◘ Been in a bath tub:

Ω yes..i like it

◘ Swam in the ocean:

Ω yes

◘ Broken someone's heart:

Ω maybe

◘ Fell off your chair

Ω when i was young

◘ Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:

Ω yeas..

◘ Saved e-mails:

Ω i just delete them

------ What is ------

◘ Your room like:

Ω no comments..my room is my room

◘ What is the last thing you ate:

Ω roti bom

------ Ever Had ------

◘ Chicken pox:

Ω yes

◘ Sore throat

Ω yes..dame i really hate it

◘ Stitches:

Ω no way

◘Broken nose:

Ω no.

------- Do You ------

◘ Believe in love at first sight?

Ω does it really happen?

------ Who ------

◘ Who was the last person you danced with?

Ω haha..cant remember

------ Final Questions ------

◘ What are you listening to right now?

Ω love story - taylor swift

◘ What did you do today?

Ω just woke up

◘ hate someone in your family?

Ω no

◘ Diamond or pearl?

Ω diamand

◘ Indoors or outdoors?

Ω indoors

------ Today did you ------

◘ Talk to someone you love?

Ω have not

◘ Kiss anyone?

Ω nope

◘ Get sick?

Ω no

◘ Talked to an ex:

Ω no..

◘ Miss someone:

Ω i miss u

------- Last person who ------

◘ You talked to on the phone?

Ω u

------ Random ------

◘ Have a crush on someone?

Ω no one

◘ What's under your bed?

Ω the floor?

◘ Favorite locations?

Ω no where

◘ Danced a slow dance with someone you didn't like?

Ω nope

◘ Who do you really hate right now?

Ω no one la

◘ Ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with?

Ω nope

◘ You lonely right now?

Ω yeah i am

◘ What time is it now?

Ω 1006am

tell me

2009-01-11T21:18:00.003+08:00

tell me..
where did i go right? what should i do?
the way i was before is i always keep things to myself. everytime i just hurt deep in my heart. but no one knows. everytime i silently crying out loud in my heart. but no one hears me. i just keep it & just keep on keeping inside of me.
but to u. i started sharing everything with u. i know u too been like the me before. i know u keep many things to urself.
but i didnt mean to share everything with u just so that u could see my pain or my tears.
i know u did many for me. yes. its true. u been thru more hurt than i have been to get me. i never denied that.
i love u so much..
yes. i know all that. but everytime i keep saying things out from myself. im offending u. & hurting ur feeling. am i right?
sighs.. maybe i should just be the me before this. then all my pain would just be mine. & i wont hurt u.
maybe i should. i will then.
just painful la. everytime im hurting u when i start talking. i just shut up this time.
i dont wanna ask for anything. i had everything already. that is u.
my biggest gift ever. thank you. u been thru many things & patiently waited. its too much too ask.
theres nothing else that i would ever ask for anymore. just u.

all wrong

2009-01-11T20:56:00.005+08:00

i stayed home. instead going to the hosp.
just to watch it. i told u long before i wanna watch it with u.
i called right before it started. so anxious. bcos i really really wanna watch it with u. i scare that u would missed it.
when it started i wanted to hold on there just to feel that u are watching with me.
if only u are next to me watching with me.
then half way watching it i called just to feel that u are there. but u werent watching. but u didnt even tell me that u werent watching. why?
sighs.. from the starting i thought we were watching with me.
& when i could get u. i just ring the hse. & i got it on the wrong time.
im so so so so so sorry la.
my fault. im bad. my wrong. i shouldnt call. i promise u i will never call the hse anymore.
i promise u.

0537 in the morning

2009-01-11T05:37:00.003+08:00

what am i doing here. sighs..
i cant sleep. i keep thinking of u. =)
im sorry if i had said out anything wrong. i didnt mean to hurt u. but i really worried is of u.
nothing makes me more happy then seeing happy. smiling. & with that laughter of urs. so sweet. yet rarely im seeing it. hehe..
thanks for going everywhere just to find me that one thing. thank you.
i miss u so much..
dont worry. i will keep myself strong. to keep us together. i will. i will try all the best i can until the end.

im really happy u told me u are happy with me. =) thank you so much..
i will always remember that.

two as one

2009-01-10T21:25:00.006+08:00

um..i dunno why everytime we will get hurt.
when will the time come when we keep smiling all the time. so much laughter & happiness. im waiting for that moment.
i know u appreciate me. yes. bcos no one ever look at me like how u did. u see whats in me. which what many dont see. they only want me to be who im not. but not u. u accept me for who i am. thank you.
but sometimes i notice that u dont have strong confidence. why?
i tell u now. everything im doing just want u & me to be happy. not for the sake of myself only or for the better for myself. i want u to be happy too. i wanna be happy with u.
thats why i change for u. but i dunno when all its done. will u be happy or not?
im really trying all my might here.
sighs.. everything im doing is for us. not for me. not for u.

i love u so much..

bad day

2009-01-08T21:08:00.006+08:00

um..today is a bad bay.
i was so dame piss off. really really top of my head this time.
i will do what i wanna do. anyone will stop me this time. i had made my decision. i will change it. =)
sighs.. im sorry i said many many bad words. i had promise u not to say. im sorry.
forgive me. my darling also had a bad day. sobs..
why is today like that? sighs.. is he trying to test us all?
um..my head so pain la. so many things on my head.
it just keep coming & keep coming. headache la.
then..at night my darling told me mom said his going india with her. my darling sad sad. sobs..
nevermind la. i know we will be sad sad. but go la k.
u & mom just okok. im very happy u know. i dont want later bad bad again. so go k. can get along with her ma. i want u to be close close with mom like before ok. =)

um..another thing about today.
happy 8th months my darling..
i guess my darling forgotten d. hehe.. its alright. later i surprised him. we will talk talk later.
ok. until here for today.

greenie day

2009-01-07T20:46:00.002+08:00

um.. today spend time with my darling. hehe.. so happy.
he watch tv until laughing laughing. so cute.. he laughs so mahal wan u know. very seldom see him or hear him laugh wan. =)
anyways the movie funny la.
everything green today. hehe..
he wear green green. me too green shirt. the cup also green. um..pakat pakat
so here it is greenie day

then we play cards. everytime he's holding my card. & always we are calling for the same card wan. but my darling always wins. pro la. hehe..
muackss.. i love u so much..

xoxo

2009-01-01T08:37:00.000+08:00